funnel cake!

so, yeah, i had funnel cake on saturday. one of my all-time favorite foods. we were at a "family fun day" and i split it with S and A, at least. and i didn't binge afterwards - or even want to. just trying to wrap my head around the fact that i can occasionally have "treats" and that i'm not being "bad".

in other news, still maintaining (i think - will go to GW on thursday for the first time in 2 weeks). i'm weighing myself at home every day on an old scale. it's kinda freaking me out since it fluctuates so much. i'm still eating more calories than i should/need to - prob. about 2000 a day. hoping to change that to 1500 as i want to lose 10 pounds before i'm a bridesmaid in my brother's wedding in 6 weeks! i lost 100 pounds in a little over 6 months and it's been exactly 3 months and i haven't even lost another 10 pounds (9 to be exact). frustrating! especially since it's ME - i'm the one eating more. ever since i've gone back to work full-time. sigh. well, at least i'm IN CONTROL - not binging - and not gaining weight. this summer i really truly hope to lose the last 20-30 pounds. sigh.

that being said, i am very (very!) thankful and grateful to be at the weight i'm at. to be able to wear cute clothes and feel confident and like myself. it's AWESOME.

maintaining (not on purpose!)

still here... just maintaining... only 3.2 pounds less than i was 5 weeks ago... definitely due to the fact that i'm still eating (at least) 6 protein bar/yogurt servings a day instead of 4. mainly this is due to fatigue and stress which makes me feel SERIOUS HUNGER most hours of the day. ugh. dr suggested taking a prescription appetite suppressant (sp?) but i'd rather not. really do want to lose 20-50 pounds (yes, that's quite a range!) more. i'm still 8 pounds away from a "overweight" bmi instead of "obese". hopefully by april! if i could only stop eating so many f'ing bars a day!

off to work...