Blog Slacker

sorry i've been a blog slacker. i was quite sick with a sinus (and minor ear) infection for a loooong 7 days until i finally got on antibiotics. then i was swamped getting ready for a visit with one of my best friends from college, christy,and her family on thursday... followed by an in-laws visit - that went shockingly well - this weekend. amazing how a weight loss can make some people (i.e. in-laws) much happier with you... and annoying, too... but at least it was an enjoyable visit. except that i lost my camera on sunday. i think it fell off my car when we were driving home from dair.y queen (which i didn't have but probably will in the future since the owner said it's 90% fat-free. hmm...may have to look into that). anyway, i'm doing well, for the most part. a little more tired & irritable than usual but that could be the time of the month. doing well with the program (went in on wednesday and lost .8 - not much - but i had eaten more protein bars than i "should have" last week due to stress) but have been fantasizing about food more & more. program A - the modified fasting diet - technically ends on nov. 10th as it will be 4 months then... and then i start eating real food along with the shakes/nutrition bars. not sure what i'll do yet - probably diet.to.go... as i think i still need the STRUCTURE to succeed. psychologically, i feel ready though to eat a meal or two a day and not eat everything in sight.

more later this week...going to watch TV/fold laundry in bed now!

ROUGH... with an UPDATE at the end

the past 24 hours have been somewhat difficult. Yesterday was the 1st day of Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year, and I woke up exhausted with horrible cramps from "my friend Flo". The first day or two of my period is usually pretty uncomfortable but yesterday was OUT.OF.CONTROL. I spent the first 12 or so hours doubled over and then I threw up on 2 separate occasions last night (sorry for TMI!). I don't think I've ever had such bad cramps and I certainly don't ever remember being nauseous with it (I'm definitely not pregnant, either, even though it feels like I am)!

To make matters oh-so-worse Adam LOST.HIS.SH*T at my mom's house last night, in front of her boyfriend & his daughter. After being an angel all day, he started knocking stuff down and being a little terror. For real. It was awful & left me very upset... I'll leave it at that.

I'm leaving for work in a few minutes. I don't even know if I slept 3 hours last night. The cramps are not as bad today but I'm still a little nauseous and so emotionally & physically drained and exhausted that I'm seriously counting the hours until I can take a nap this afternoon. I can't take off work/leave early since I did that yesterday (for RH) and it's the first week of school.

At least it's Friday, right?!?

UPDATE: (caution: I'm about to write some pretty gory details about my upset stomach)...
So, about 20 minutes after I wrote this, when I was literally about to leave for work, I threw up the water I had drinken (lovely). I managed to get to work, walked in and thought I would pass out right then & there. Told the administrative intern that I was sick (so thankful he's cool) and went back in the car for the 14 minute ride home. Promptly 7 minutes later I threw up IN THE CAR WHILE DRIVING. I had a bag, at least. Made it home (Thank you, G-d) and decided that I had Toxic Shock Syndrome (TSS). Called the nurse at GW and she said it was a possibility and that I should be seen by a Doctor. Had S take off work to drive me 45 minutes to see my doctor (in case I got sick in the car again; can't be that safe)... by that time, my low-grade fever was gone and I was feeling a bit better. TSS was ruled out (shocker, right?) due to my unusually HIGH blood pressure (probably b/c I'm sick.... anyway, it's low with TSS) and lack of fever. Declared it a stomach bug and gave me some Zol.fran to help with the nausea (it has but has left me a little out of it). So, there you have it. What a way to start the (Jewish) New Year! Oy! I just hope and pray that S or A (or my mom) don't get it! I also hope I feel better to go to GW for my weekly appt tomorrow.... I'm out of food (almost) and I miss the classes. Here's hoping!!!